Chillin in my thai fishermen pants.

Quite a while back I did a post all about how obsessed I am with these super comfortable pants and then two days ago my awesome best friend Millie gave me a grey pair with embroidery on the bottom. I was so excited!! And still am, so thank you Millie you are grand. Lots of fun at playland the other day with Millie! The new atmosfear ride freaks me out but I love it. The wooden roller coaster will always be my favorite ride ever.Yesterday I went to my godmother's cabin up in the mountains for the day and it was great. I drank two glasses of strawberry wine which is p.s delicious. I don't want to sound like a weenie because I am seventeen but I really like wine. Maybe it's the portuguese in me. The weather is kind of iffy/nice. I want to go to the lake today if Josh and Jesse ever wake up..

“Some beach somewhere, there’s a big umbrella casting shade over an empty chair. Palm trees are growing, warm breezes blowing. I picture myself there, some beach somewhere.” — Unknown

2 months (ish) until we are free

Driving in the car with Millie was so fun! She got her first car ( round of applause!) and she was so excited and her mom was SO excited! Her mom cracks me up :). I am so excited for our roadtrip this summer. Oregon and then maaybe California? That's probably pushing it. I tend to get over excited and push it. But OH MY GOODNESS I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! I cannot wait to graduate and just get out of my little suburban home town. I need to see and do things! But I am graduating so we will see where I go. I have never been the one to have a well laid out plan. My plans never work. I am more of a make it up as I go, go with the flow kind of gal. Maybe that's a bad thing? God, I am so tired of trying to be good though. Sometimes I get so tired because I feel like, especially with graduation coming up, I am constantly feeling like people ( and by people I mean teachers) are trying to make me make choices or make me into someone that I am not. I feel like everyone has been brainwashed into thinking that the only way to succeed in life and be happy is to go to a certain university ( SFU or UBC where I'm from) and then get a job, and work until you retire and that's it. I don't want to do that! I want to do something different. I always thought it was weird how everyone is trying to be happy but everyone is told to follow a similar path to happiness when everyone is so different. Can I just breathe? Can I just make it up as I go for a little while? Can I be seventeen and be irresponsible and choose the fun option instead of the tedious "right" option? Can I do stupid things and then laugh without feeling like I am stupid? Because if I don't do that now when will I ever be able to do that? I just want to graduate and figure some stuff out. That's my plan for after grad. I am going to hop in a car with Millie and figure some stuff out because I need to. I need to live a little and as cliche/flaky as it sounds I need to get to know myself a little better because how well can I know myself if I have lived in this little town my whole life? I have been on family trips but I feel like that's not the same. I am so ready for this summer!!

This is about fast food but whatever :) it's still true.